....and I thought I would be happier about that little number. I was surprised when I started crying, part relief and part sadness. I realize that (for now) this is the end of a very long and rough journey. But a beautiful dream has been floating along with us on that journey and I know it's time to make it come true.
the number itself is so hard because it means nothing. Don't give up...but allow the grief. You're so strong, but allow moments of weakness it is necessary. I'm thinking of you, and we should totally go to Disneyland sometime I'd like to meet someone in person who knows just how hard IF is!!! (I can sign us in!) Hope that wasn't too creepy lol! Anywho, take care and thank you for allowing us to share in your journey. Best wishes, Amy
ReplyDeleteZero is the end, but it is also a new beginning. I can't wait to start on the new journey with you! Whether it is through adoption or IVF, I know that you are going to be a mom. Hopefully sooner than you think :)
ReplyDeleteGlad to see you are holding up after a long drawn out cycle. I'm happy you are not giving up on your beautiful dream!
ReplyDeleteAmy...let's do it!!! And you're right....I definitely am taking time to cry (like earlier) but it is beyond great to have something to look forward to again.
ReplyDeleteI think your mixed feelings about it are completely normal. There are going to be good days and bad - and it is OK to just let yourself feel whatever you are feeling - it is part of healing.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you and so excited for this next part of your journey.
I can remember feeling exactly the same after our number finally came back zero... but so heartbreaking too. My heart goes out to you and hope your journey leads you to your little one/s as soon as possible :)) xoxo
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