Sunday, November 6, 2011

Holy Crap..update!

I can't believe it has been such a long time since my last post. A lot has happened since then and I have tried to at least read some of your blogs and haven't been the best. Lots of things going on with you, thanks for stopping by and leaving some kinds words, those I did see. oxo

So since my last post I started having what I thought was another round of Monday's bleeding. Turned out not to but was scary anyways. A very good friend of mine offered to drive to the rink where hubby was playing ice hockey (it was in a another nearby city, she lives there) since I thought it was starting again. Phew. I have had two beta's: 10/10 368 down from 7364, 10/24 10...almost there) and I go back tomorrow for the last one. I have never wanted something to be zero more in my entire life.  I am so ready to move past all this. U/s this week, I am hoping for Tuesday.

Speaking of moving on, I am doing pretty good.  It was really hard for me at first and it gets easier everyday. I think I felt as if I really didn't have much to say.  I am bitter about it doesn't seem fair but then again none of this IF shit does.  I still cry and in fact I cried last night. I am so relieved that Halloween is over which means the stores are in the process of being packed up for next year. It also means that Hubby will be around more and our life can slowly return back to normal.

My life has been (sadly) centered around school. I just finished conferences last week (two no shows!!) but my life has consisted of comments and report cards for the last two weeks. I also received a new student (another boy!-that makes 15) who is very difficult due to a horrific life so far. My heart goes out for him but he is making teaching very difficult. My best gals took me to Disn.eyland the weekend of the 21st and that was an interesting weekend. Lots of fun but it had a really rough start thanks to my FIL. But that's another post..I have to think about posting it.  Halloween in Kindergarten is lots of fun. My classroom looked killer with tissue paper ghosts everywhere.  I realized I never posted a pic of my classroom, so here you go!

tissue paper Kindergarten ghost them!

Halloween setup in room K1!

  We are excited to move forward with our international adoption with Korea.  I emailed our social worker to find out if she had found out if the agency was going to have us wait 3 or 6 months after our last cycle.  We initially told her it wasn't successful and then my conscience made me feel dishonest and we told her everything the next day about our last round. She was still okay with pursuing the 3 month wait and it was approved by our homestudy agency!! And to make it more exciting we have our 4th homestudy set for next Monday!! I am waiting to hear if we need to reschedule it, since we are still in the process of collecting paperwork.  If any of you know how to get a copy of a Korean birth certificate, please let me know! I have looked online and can't find much. I have an email into the agency for more ideas, next is calling the consulate.  Our four reference letters are in process (two are done, just waiting to be notarized this week) and the other two should be done by Friday.

Off to bed....up early for labs and my first day of extended day with my kiddos.  Why do I have a feeling I will come home and crash (after my meeting of course!).... Hooray for a short week!


  1. I'm so glad to hear from you!!!

    It sounds like you are moving on to a brighter place. Moving past a miscarriage like this is so hard, you never 'get over it', but you do move past it. I look forward to following your adoption adventure. :)

  2. So glad to hear from you - you were missed!
    I am glad that things are looking up for you. M/C is so hard, and there are days when I still am sad about mine and it was almost 2 years ago (I can't believe that!!!) Good luck with the birth certificate. I am sending many prayers that the adoption process goes smoothly for you guys!
    Also, love the classroom, super cute!

  3. I'm glad you're back!!! I hope your blood work and u/s go well this week. Here's hoping you are able to figure out the birth certificate thing soon- I'm excited to follow along with your adoption process!

  4. Thanks ladies. It's true... moving past and not completely forgetting simultaneously....lots of emotions ahead.