Wednesday, August 24, 2011

One More Sleep til Transfer

I really don't know how I made it here in such a "whole" piece.  I have said over and over that I have felt remarkably calm this past month or so.  I have no clear view as to why but I can guess and make assumptions.  All I know is I feel great and (mostly) calm and just a little bit anxious.  I am going to keep trying to take it one day at a time and not focus on anything but that.  Because truly, there is not much more I can do but try to RELAX! I am crossing all my fingers and toes that all 3 embryos survive the thaw and then make a happy home inside me! I'm ready!!

I became overwhelmed at school today and started tearing up but it was mainly because I was sitting across from a very pregnant team member and the start of school looming over me was just too much!!  Lots of projects and prep, but luckily I have an amazing team and they will help me get through this next week.  I will be going in on Sunday for a bit but I fully plan on spending the majority of the next three days on my butt.  I am taking advantage of my last "long" weekend to help these little ones settle in.  In a way, I am thankful I won't have to escape to DL to get away from my head like last time.  All I have to do is go to work and get to know my 24 new kiddos next week!

Today I had an abdominal massage at my acupuncture clinic....for an hour!!! Not only was I a) very surprised it was so long but b) the gal that did it was super nice.  Not that it felt great the whole time but I am hopeful it gets the blood flowing where it needs to flow!! Tomorrow I will go in for pre and post transfer sessions and then once more on Saturday.  I also am taking a mix of herbs beginning tonight to help with implantation.  This is probably bad but I didn't ask my RE about it. *grimaces*  Remember he's not big on acupuncture.  The herbs can't hurt right?? I meant to call my nurse but today's busyness led to a forgetful mind.  Now here I ask for some advice from you.....my acupuncturist wants me to eat chicken soup and fresh (non-chilled) pineapple for the three days after transfer.  I am fine about the chicken soup...I looked up some yummy recipes and I love soup. No biggie. I'm happy to help my little ones settle in and I will do anything at this point to help them stick.  I have heard mixed things about the pineapple.  I was just told to eat it, not the core just the fruit part.  Do any of you know about this? I have read online there is a chemical that helps with implantation and I have read it can cause miscarriages (but I think those were talking about drinking pineapple juice).


In the back of my mind I can hear the little voices whispering and talking behind my back. They are starting to become louder. I think they are sharing bad secrets and I am afraid of overhearing what they are saying.  Please negativity go away. I have tried so very hard (and succeeded) to keep you away for so long this time.  Please don't let my fears take over.

I have found this quote multiple times and I have read it repeatedly.  It gives me hope. 

When the World says, "Give up," Hope whispers, "Try it one more time." ~Author Unknown

Please let this be my turn.  This is our last and final go at IF treatments. Please let this work. Please. Please. Please. Please.

Transfer is at noon tomorrow.  This is it!!!!!!! Here we go!!!!!!!!!!
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12 comments:

  1. LoraAugust 25, 2011 at 3:32 AM

    Wishing you all the luck in the world today!! I so hope that this will be your turn! Your positive attitude will go a long way! Thinking of you today!

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  2. MichelleAugust 25, 2011 at 6:49 AM

    Good luck, good luck!!! I'll be thinking of you guys today!

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  3. Frankie BeeAugust 25, 2011 at 7:02 AM

    I have a really good feeling about this time! I'm not sure about the pineapple. Would not hurt to try, but I think it is one of those things that is anecdotal, not scientifically based. Good Luck Kelli! It is your turn!

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  4. SoozAugust 25, 2011 at 8:17 AM

    Wishing you tons and tons of good luck!!

    I've heard about the pineapple. I think it's some chemical in the pineapple core that's supposed to be helpful for implantation. I'm thinking that it can't hurt.

    I'll be thinking of you!

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  5. E and RAugust 25, 2011 at 8:17 AM

    Good luck! I am sending many, many prayers your way for success this cycle!!
    I have heard about the pineapple thing - I think when I read about it they said that it was if you ate too much of it there was a miscarriage risk. I thought about doing it as well, but in the end I never got around to going and getting a pineapple (largely because I got spoiled by the wonderful, extrememly fresh pineapple I had while living in Hawaii and none have tasted nearly as good since moving back to the mainland!)

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  6. ChickenpigAugust 25, 2011 at 9:18 AM

    Actually, neither acupuncture nor pineapple will have any affect on implantation. I don't know why people still think that anything you eat drink/don't eat or drink will help or hurt your embryos. They won't get anything from you until after the placenta is formed, until then they rely on the yolk sac for everything.

    There is a sight that was posted on Stirrup Queens of talks given in Stockholm and one of the topics is "myths of embryo transfer". If you want to increase blood flow, baby aspirin is believed to help in that area. I would avoid herbs and herbal teas because some contain plant estrogens, which will mess with your hormone regimen, and some contain plants that can cause miscarriage. I myself had the best luck when I didn't think the transfer would work and I didn't give a you know what :) So...I would say anything that can get you calm and casual is your best bet. I wish I had been able do that last time. Stress after transfer isn't good.

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  7. ChickenpigAugust 25, 2011 at 9:22 AM

    Actually, neither acupuncture nor pineapple will have any affect on implantation. I don't know why people still think that anything you eat drink/don't eat or drink will help or hurt your embryos. They won't get anything from you until after the placenta is formed, until then they rely on the yolk sac for everything.

    There is a sight that was posted on Stirrup Queens of talks given in Stockholm and one of the topics is "myths of embryo transfer". If you want to increase blood flow, baby aspirin is believed to help in that area. I would avoid herbs and herbal teas because some contain plant estrogens, which will mess with your hormone regimen, and some contain plants that can cause miscarriage. I myself had the best luck when I didn't think the transfer would work and I didn't give a you know what :) So...I would say anything that can get you calm and casual is your best bet. I wish I had been able do that last time. Stress after transfer isn't good.

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  8. CoriAugust 25, 2011 at 5:43 PM

    Thinking of you!!! Right now you should be PUPO!!!!!! Xoxoxo

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  9. AnonymousAugust 26, 2011 at 7:26 AM

    Happy post-transfer day!!!! Hope your embabies are snuggled up in your ute today and that you've found your calm, happy place. :D

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  10. ChickenpigAugust 26, 2011 at 9:00 AM

    Sorry for the double post. It is 12 o'clock now and I'm thinking of you and your embies. Good luck!

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  11. Mrs. RAugust 26, 2011 at 4:17 PM

    sorry for the late post - i hope everything went well on thursday and you are able to just relax for today and the entire weekend!

    i'm not sure about the herbs, but my acupuncturist did also recommend eating a whole pineapple after the transfer. I ended up eating it all except for the core (i chickened out on that part). I just grabbed their handout which says to consume equal amounts of pineapple over five days, beginning with day of transfer.

    I also went in for the pre- and post-transfer treatments and i feel like they helped mentally and physically to get me to relax.

    i'm so excited for you being PUPO!!! :)

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  12. KelliAugust 26, 2011 at 11:35 PM

    Thank you all for your sweet comments, I can't tell you how much it means to have all your good thoughts out there!! I was able to read them on my phone throughout the day!! Thanks for sharing your thoughts as well...I'm putting up a new post with my decisions! oxoxxoxo

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