I have been working really hard the last few weeks on report cards and conferences. This week I am meeting with the last of my families but am almost through. I have had much to focus my energy on the last few weeks. Today my grade level team had a planning day. One of my team members is pregnant (and do I dare mention they weren't even "trying:...apparently she was on birth control!) and we spent most of the day together. I am glad we won't be having another one of these because I barely made it through the day. Sitting in a small room with a pregnant woman is no bueno.
Despite the fact that I may have lost one of my "best" friends over my "reaction" to her pregnancy, I don't feel I have done anything too cruel...honesty is the best policy. Right? Maybe not. I thought telling her several weeks ago that I am truly happy for her and her boyfriend but showing it in the "right" way is hard for me right now would help. (I take it back, very hard.) I think our conversation has only made things more awkward. Please understand why I can't ask how you are feeling out of the blue but I am trying my best to show my interest in your baby.
So after several hours of baby comments here and there (which I know she has every right to say and do) I barely made it through lunch. Started crying and quickly wiped away my tears before she could see. This sucks.
Saw my good friend tonight who works with an old co-worker of mine. I guess she asked about me today and was wondering if I was pregnant yet. (When I worked with her, we were just getting to the point where we were beginning to wonder if there was something going on...) I wish I had some grand exciting news to share. Why does it seem like everyone else does?