Wednesday, June 29, 2011
Got the call at 11:30 this morning. Our FET didn't work. I'm soooo disappointed but at the same time I feel like I knew it was coming. Or maybe it's just that since we've never had a BFP I'm becoming numb to it all. I feel more angry at the moment than anything. Why didn't it work? Why can't it be our turn? What the hell is wrong with my body?????? My heart hurts.
Right now I have little hope for our last three embryos since they are the bottom of our barrel. I know I shouldn't say that but it's the complete truth. I am also unsure if I actually want to pursue another transfer. This feeling came out today and surprised me. I was so elated when I found out we had another chance. And now I'm so drained, emotionally and physically, I don't know what I want. ... and I'm not even working right now! Our next one would be around August right at the beginning of my stressful time..the start of another school year. We will have to see what thoughts the next month brings. I am hoping to meet with our RE before the end of the month. Maybe he has some answers.....
Just as planned we did take one step closer to our adoption. We went and had our fingerprinting done. It actually helped me feel a little better.